Wednesday 12-07-06

upsetted.
depressedSAL is upsetted.
sucks lo. the stupid auntie @ foodcourt.
If depressedSAL eats in ur stall again, i m mad~

arh, cant tell the diff. btw love n hate.
i really cant let him go aft the thing ysday.
Ruiting must haf been luffing @ mii silliness.

arh, i wan my PSP.
i wan mii CARS~~~!!

arh, a maths test is horrible. tok too much, no time to finish. mwhaha. only did 3 ques so i m guaranteed a 36/60. at least i passed. haha.
So stuck-up...

i really wanted my freedom, yet its stress that is suffocating mii.
never had the time to rest and now, i gotto cont. to move on..

what about the promises euu made to mii?
are they all gone now?
promises are meant to be broken.
wad i want is ur committment.
to mii.
i nvr get enough assurance from euu.
i nvr get enough attention.
i nvr feels like a human anymore.
perhaps i m juz a body without a soul.


我发现，
我竟然伪装到已迷失自我。
我完全找不回自己。
茫茫人海中，
那个孤独的背影，
拖拉着沉重的脚印，
是否她这里？
她仿佛行尸走肉般，
慢无目的，
人群中仍感到被遗弃。



depressedSAL cant find her way home,
will euu help her?

depressedSAL

illusions in her disparity.
lost in her self-esteem.
devoured by her desires.
unable to see.
thoughts in her mind swirling,
telling her what fool she had been.
untrusted and unbelieving.
never felt this lost.
she is the stranger,
stranded among strangers.
she is the walking soul.
the corspe of the living.
swallowed by her stupidity.
weak in her limbs.
unheard wails of help.
making up lies,
covering reality.
sick with the devils,
tired of the angels,
she is neither and,
never a human.
pink fantasy,
covered with deadly romance.
hidden and masked.
felt only poison and pricks.
eye blinded and brain gone.
make her decisions waver.
the waves never ripple.
hated the science of nature,
love calculation of the beasts.
awaits the painful stab in her heart.
spirit felt lost and body deserted.
gonna freed herself from her cage,
it bounds her so tight.
she is no longer trapped.
she can hear your voice.
she wants to get out.
fire,
despair,
lost.
abandoned by people,
she lies forgotten.
now.
she returns

DepressedSAL--- never forget the truth and never rely on the lies.