fine.. today is horrible...
first, there is this already planned thingy.. fine i am a very attitude person. lousy one. and i don like troubles and damn hateful of sensitivity.. and then, today was supposed to be..
HAPPIE shopping day or sth n it changed dramatically to DEPRESSED home-watching buffy... .. but puh-lease.. how can someone go shopping without WALKING? i mean, euu walk wif ur leg then euu dun wanna walk to tired ur leg, go buy OSIM or sth lah... and its juz walking home... is tt diff? i mean i wanna go home coz 1. Go CHANGE. 2. i noe euu totally hated walking, and very 'xin teng' ur leg. tt's y wii go home.. rest a lil, soak ur precious leg in soap or sth.. SPA it.. whu noes, then set off.. tt way i hear less grumbling about painful leg.. and i can shop for my stuffs... ... den this is the stupid 'fine, don go' attitude of mii.. FINE~ sally doesnt wan to go... can euu at least TRY??? to make her go? ok, i m tactless... fine~ ignore mii... ... arghh.. n it seemed so hard to converse anymore... ... so the whole thing is spoilt.. my whole mood reduces to ZERO,NIL,DITTO DOTS,NONE~!!! sigh.. feel like calling her to cancel kbox tmr.. i either feel SLIGHTLY better tmr, or VERY worst... and it doesnt help to increase my already horrible mood.. i mean,MAN! my mood isnt even horrible, its... .. juz DOWN... i m not feeling upset or angry or wad... FINE, whu m i KIDDING? yup, i AM upset,sad, depressed and a slight angry.. fed-up.. must be the Virgo's perfectionist in mii.. i juz hate cropping up my plans... .. anyway, i haf absolutely no feelings for the word SHOPPING.. and to think a day ago i was happily listing my shopping lists, planning to make my getaway @ bugis today.. but now, nth stir mii up anymore.. its DOWN DOWN DOWN~

and then. i m horrified at the progress of Jazz and her new-boyfriend.. dun ask mii wad they did.. .. it was mad.. hmm.. a lil awesome.. i wish i had her bravery. euu noe, to do sth brave... sth worthful... and sth ridiculous.. juz let go totally.. .. kinda miss the ex-paraDANCE crazy sally and the hipHOP dancer sally... .. maybe wii cld party @ Jazz hse n let the hair loose sometimes... =)

anyway, today's teacher's day celebration is awesome... .. Xcept some singing.. but gosh, Tengcheong and Kahkin's band totally rock.. i mean, i lokpui n jiemin were HIGH there... shouting and cheering.. .. hahahs. tt was cool den i saw tengcheong aft tt wif tt eyeliner mascara thingy.. godness.. cool ii guess... and. erm, from AFAR kinda shuai... =) lol. ... and black is awesome.. and kahkin's band's song v nice. and i kinda like his voice... .. when protraying tt song lah..=)

ok, a lil soul-pouring here..
Sometimes, i wish to be more significant.. i dun wanna hide. i mean i ALWAYS does tt... go somewhere, and then its hide and seek time.. i think i m real FAKE and ARTIFICIAL... can i be more... TRUTHFUL?? and i nid to face ppl wif my own self.. i WANT to.. but i cant... tt is the part tt is totally pathetic and quinky... i m juz a fake girl.. i had enough of mii.. patheticSAL.. depressedSAL. un-lovedSAL... and i really HATE mii.. self-hatred.. let the self-despair works man! sometimes i wish my mom nvr gif birth to mii, or born mii to be more pleasant or sth? juz be more useful.. i feel so useless.. and so insignificant.. i can be wif ppl and feel lonely, i can be stranded among strangers but nvr mingle around and CURSE IT, nvr be noticed... .. i loved Bouvelard Of Love.. a 'song' i written ... .. the lyrics is so TRUELY mii.. the despairity, sucking up on SELF-pity, wallowing myself in pathetic-ness, hating myself to the core, despising every part of mii from eyeballs to entrails...

oh my god.. and to think i was living the worst bday in my life... the sicko-sick-desperately-praying-for-illness-to-cure kinda of bday, the whole gang shocked to half to death... ...

there is a lot of shocking loving surprises..
1) I got a msg from Shafiq @ around midnight, wishing mii happie bday... yup i M touched...
2) Ms Wong say happie bday to mii ya noe.. MISS WONG~ lol... touched.
3) My mama sms mii happie bday.. SMS leh. tt hp-un-savvier.. haha.. touched again..
4) The shirt and pants present frm people... yep, i loved them tremendously and m touched..
5) The yummy surprise of MANGO CAKE~ yummies...~
6) A msg and present from JASON ~ him?? the army tan guy looked so mature.. batting eyelashes now... =p
7) My dad sing mii bday song in the whole restaurant.. kinda embarrassed, but touched...
8) My daddy willingness to sponser $30 for mui shopping rendevous... =)



haha... but it was like... wow wow wow.. ivy n jiemin came with that cake... cleared half of my refrigerator while trying to fit it in.. then aft tt the whole gang [ audrey, caifeng, ruiting, jiankai, willy and alfred ] came.. haha.. whole lots of struggling b4 wii got the cake. then song singing... then cutting cake.. oops.. i made a bad cut coz I DUNNO HOW TO CUT A CAKE~ paiseh lah.. but this cake eating is the fun part.. no plate no mess.. everyone grab a fork, dig in~ whole 9 ppl digging into a cake.. ... hmm.. v remarkable scene... den the chatting and tormenting of my poor Casey.. .. haha.. she hissed at Alfred. she dun like bear lah.. then stupid jiankai say she senile.. =( later she bite euu ahh... haha... oh, i love the phototaking... but, i wanna see the pictures too~~ hais.. today is a fantastic day lah... Xcept the fact that my dearest Richie AKA Hong Yi Jun aint present.. ... coz i really really hope she is around.. ... den its more complete mah... :( but she also 'bu gou peng you' nvr even sms mii to wish mii happie bday.. cry.. that reminds mii...

* * * ZAX WANG REN FU ~ HAPPIE BDAY TOO!!! EUU R TWENTY SIX ON 2808~ HOPE EUU GET UR WISHES COME THROUGH.REMEMBER MII...I WILL GET TO TAIWAN AND FIND EUU DE.... mwhaha.. * * *

and... the most fantastic surprise is JASON pop out and sms mii.. mit mii at our fav hangOUT @ BK.. gave mii a surprise.. wonderful.. and a present.. and it make mii feel guilty.. coz i din gif him present on 0508 his bday, and i almost forget him... no choice.. he is trap in camp; when he gets out, spends time wif John and Jeff and the rest of his fwen. he wanna mit mii i also unfree.. i really forget him leh.. so .. haha.. but gosh. he grown taller ( i tink ) and definately DARKER.. so tan and look more matured and more handsome liao.. did Siew Wen fall in love wif euu deeply again? haha.. .. she must be impressed at ur change.. i m too.. .. my gege become so .. .... .. transformative.. =)

anyway, i feel so damn better from the illness... alive and kicking.. and... ... .. Ruiting wanna gibb mii kbox treat soon.. and i m very very happie.. satisfied sally... i got three wishes...
* * * 1. Good results for O'
* * * 2. Wish mii family, Casey and fwens happie and mii no longer depressedSAL
* * * 3. shh... i m not supposed to tell ya... shh shhsss

=) I love ZAX~GINO~SAM~JAMES~THOMAS~DAVID~
* * * i love JAZZ AND NICHOLAS TOO...

arghh.. haf euu ever seen a more pathetic vermin than mii?
1) Sick on my bday
2)Grounded on my bday
3)Mdm Sue's lesson X04 on my bday
4)No fried food on my bday
5)No self-baked cake on my bday
6)Postponed Kbox on my bday

gross.. this yr's bday is the most disgusting and the most abhor one... ...
and its my SWEET SIXTEEN~~~~~~!
and i still cant see my Zax.. awful bday horrible bday grotesque bday... :(

and i WAS pathetic on friday.. squatting in front of the toilet bowl.. i mean eww...~whu squats in front of the bowl? my butt?? its all coz of tt VOMIT that wun vomit... den i took 2 bites out of my rice, vomit somemore.. tried to slp but wake up at 12midnight to awful feeling... drank milo and vomit it out.. then it is AH~~~ feel tons better.. bt still horrid and sore on sat.. but hey~ i m alive n kicking now.. except the running nose, cough and the strict restriction on fried food and my mom totally freak out when i tried to go to Sembawang to buy cake ingredients. she goes [ euu cant buy. euu cant cook... no one dares to eat a cake bake by someone sick anway... ] oh god~! its awful..

but there is sth sweet in the awful-ness...
of coz i received a very very nice present from Jazz..
GOSH~ euu made it.. euu saved up to buy it for mii?
[pls say yes... :P]
the shoe is so nice.. i saw it tt time wii went shopping @ Orchard and euu bought it? gosh~ i totally adore pink high-heel... =) it looks good wif the mini skirt i bought last week or so... ...
and its PINKies... tried walking on it.. hmm... the size is a lil big.. but luckily the straps are adjustable.so its prefect... and i lurbb PINKies.. i said tt already? oops..
and yup yup i remember nich's early bday present from last wk.. i haven use that INKedition bag yet euu noe... saving up... =) its nice although i still think that it is a lil boyish... =)
and hey, WANGruiting.. owex mii kBOX... haha... but i aint inviting JAZZ n NICH... ... boo hoo hoo~~ mwhahah...

ok i m crapping... and i feel awful reading the summart for buffy... coz SPIKE is totally gorgeous.. hmm.. and ANGEL too ... =) but i still prefer James Marsters even thou i still blamed him for being VERY VERY aged... David Boreanaz is VERY aged... and he shares the same bday as mii daddy... i hate buffy... she like spike, but dun love him.. dunno feel like she is being a whore or sth.. ... i mean... wadever.. euu juz gotto read the summary for the whole SEVEN seasons and and transcripts.. euu will get wad i mean, eventually. i hope.

fine today totally sucks...
why ? cant i at least showed that i know something?
i mean, i noe physics test isnt the top of my BEST subject list,
its is neither urs...
and stop it.. stop ur looking down on mii thing.. the more euu push it, the more i try it, the more i get to the mill, and the more i work, the sooner i die... ah hah~! that is ur aim eh?
first euu tried making used of mii?
do euu ever noe how awful i felt?
i mean, fine if the oral thing euu don wan to share, but euu had plans wif friends, OUR friends,
does it ever goes to ur mind of juz asking mii if i planned to join? or if i cared to help? or to euu guys, i m juz non-existance?? i mean, is just a few words of " would euu care to help?" five words at most.. doesnt hurts to practise ur ABCs rite? and did euu guys, or rather EUU bother? nope.. then ask mii in the eleventh hour... i mean, why?? i juz don get it.. for my notes? i mean.. yah... strong emphasizing on notes.. goes critizing mii on my handwriting... i mean its true. i dun mind if euu make a joke out of it... but could euu be less of tactless... i mean , don go shooting ur mouth off at the wrong thing...?? its horrible euu noe. the way euu say it.. and i tot friends kid around, make stupid jokes about one another. but NEVER mean it... and the way euu speak, do euu mean it as a joke, a sacasism or plainly stating it wif a knife saying " welcome to the tactless club! "? i dun get it.. the truth is blunt. my handwriting sux.. i dun mind jokin i dun mind laughing HELL! i dun mind ADMITTING... but being tactless and so oblivious to the fact that i was glowing red in the face, feeling pissed.. cant euu be more ... haf a heart??? are euu made of human parts?
then i got Nicholas to teach mii physic FINALLY(thanx nich)... i mean i cant rely on copying.. really wanna prove my worth to Ms Wong even if it is a tiny mini Radioactivity test... and do euu noe hte feeling is great. i used to be sneered at.. my lowly marks, mii begging for answers. and today i start providing them.. i like tt satisfactory feeling.. it feels good not to FINALLY be looked down at... all throughout my pri n sec life, how many a times haf ppl began to tear my self-esteem,confiidence and my ego heart apart wif critisism?how many times haf i cried in the dark waiting for ppl to AT LEAST showed that they care, that tell mii SALLY HO isnt juz a shadow in the dark? i dun wan to lurk, i wanna surface out... don wanna hide.. and the lil acheivement in my maths... yea, feels good at least not to be look down.. not to be snickered at... but to think i tot friends like euu would start by saying " nice work SAL, hope euu work hard on ur phy..." (like wad ting did) but nope~! i got another painful stab in my egoistic heart, and a knife injury there... OUCH~! and to think euu r my friend. i least tot euu will be so more tactless and state that thing out... and euu tink its my fault of that attitude?? dun go shooting ur mouth off will ya?? please??!! i feels a lot better noeing that i haf at least some kind-hearted friend whu excel in chemistry and whu is so ever willing to teach mii... ... i mean, i was totally in awe about my passing mark... C5 euu noe.. and i credited it to euu. .. but all this time, euu could be sneering in the heart, scoffing about wad an idiot i m at the subject... treating mii like a fool... like wad euu did in phy... please~! i got the flu virus too....!! is not like as if i m in the best of mood and best of conditions.. and to tink i plunged myself out of that comfortable seat to check if MY answer was correct.. i was so ever happie that i got tt euu noe? but euu came and burst my bubble... do euu noe wad tactless mean... if euu wanna look down on mii, do it in the dark.. and pray tt i don noe... DON EVER realize... but nah! euu do it in the open... ok for once, i salute euu.. at least euu are better than backstabbers hiding in the dark.. but... ... EUU R MY FRIEND... emphazise strongly on FRIEND~~~~ agh... then this is the whole issue of mii trying to help.. .. but the painful blow of [ yep, ur physic sucks.. y dun euu get out of this world, get to the alternate reality that physics and sciences don exist? spent all ur days doing stupid things like watching dramas.. for all i care.. juz fail.~get lost...] kinda thing... .. and it hurts a lot..i haf dozens and tons of stuffs to deal wif euu noe.. i cant get the truth shoving to my face when i m trying to improve.. r euu de-moralizing mii?? i m trying to change~ will GOD or someone gives mii a chance???!! please??

i m getting despo here... ... i nid a chance.. all i nid was to show everyone how i cld work.. no one gives mii a damn... and no one even bothers if i was in working-conditions or slacking condition... how can i find someone whu truely cares?? wad if i die of stress or of this stupid flu virus?? will someone even mourn for mii? or will everyone lifes goes on... since i m never part of it... ... and darn... if i die of stress, i surrender totally but if i die of flu.. i m gg to hide my face even if i become a ghouly ghost... i have a lot of things to do after this flu goes away.. i wanna try chilli.. oOo n curry... and i wanna go kbox... and i wanna sing at Superstar next yr... and i wanna go taiwan find zax and cele our bday tgt.. and i wanna go find gino and show him his pic in my wallet.. and i wanna go find Sam and ask him to marry mii.. and i wanna go Australia.. n if i ever wanna die.. can i die of over-feeding of chocolates?and dark chocolate to be exact??please??!!

do euu ever feel like breaking down?
have euu ever feel so out of place?
when the world is looking down upon euu?
and friends juz turn to foes,
and nothing in this world seemed to care?
do euu ever feel so depressed?
have euu ever feel like a pile of rubbish dumped?
when the world is snickering at euu?
and luck dont find euu,
and miracles dont seemed to happen?


Yea, welcome to MY LIFE!

i m here bloggin sensibly. yep, i noe my faults in oral... stupid retainer lahh... and my tongue is probably stern.. i cant seemed to pronounce " probably,sensibly,lovely.." all the "ly"... arhh... it is so embarrassed loh...

so wad to say? it is tormenting and painful to be sitting in her english lessons esp if she started doin the reg. calling thing... petrifying, i donnoe when she is calling THIRTEEN~ drags~! and the does the time... but ok lah. the remedial today was quite fun though, wif the oral practising... ... i grew more confident in speakin, and i was looking for the day she call mii up to tok on fun topics like CATS PETS or IDOL... even for reading.. haha. but nonono to boring topics like TERRORISM and wadsoever.. .. den chi... another drill on the importance of oral. for those whu gets merit.. for mii, its a dist. but nth to feel proud of coz puh-lease! i m someone whu toks madly like there is no tomorrow, in chinese~~ and i got so used to quarrelling wif mii parents that oral seemed to be only the tip of the iceberg... the worst is when i haf to face ENGLISH oral... whu noes if they are luffing at ur atrocious eng, or whether they are surpressing a big laugh coz u pronounced something wrongly, or whether they are happily putting a big fat F9 on ur score sheet coz euu went out-of-pt... its terrible to endure all these... sigh~ got butterflies in my stomach even now... ... and pls, i cant pronounce coz of my retainer.. it is nth to luff about lh stupid gay lau... :p
maths test ahh,,is horrifying lar... but all the discussion and copying.. mwhaha.. its such an informal test... i myself called myself a genius for i myself thinks so... -_-''' forget it.. i m crapping. i don even noe i m toking these days.. somethings juz blurt out and i cant even internalize wad i m speaking b4 ppl start luffing.. that is when i noe i made a fool out of myself AGAIN~ ~ ~ ~ duhh.. i m a big joke lahh... :'(
chemistry lessons ah? i only catch ESTER.. it was repeated so many times.. i tink its a combine of acid n alcohol AH??!! haha... den wad is alcohol??... no kididng lah. i juz dun get wad is in the topic now.. and i dun understand any of it... oh worst is physic lah... =( i cant even noe wad is the units. conversion then wadever is that circuit or power thingy?? ah~~!! i juz dun get it man!! then history wi get into grouping and Captain Sally is steering.. all on board?ai iy captain! good! lets go on to econ. factors ... ... ... ... mwhaha... ok lah.. but wii got one wrong... TOV terms... :'( but at least history is one of the few subjects i cant understand... it is simple~ like wad weechow say: simplicity is virtue~ *winks*

regretted nt acc. Ruiting to top up her card n see the 'suspected' Snoopii's Liu De Hwa... arh~ i lurbb snoopi so muchhy~~ haha.. but i lurbb my ZAX n GINO n SAM n more lahh.. oh yah.. support JSTAR BASEBALL TEAM. they thrashed Japan's team~~!! yea!

hais... ya hoh. remember SOMEONE says i write lil in my fwen horh? y sld i? is so private... n complained tt i nvr share goodies on my non-existance LOVELIFE~~ haha, since she complained, i will write... unfortunately, uglySAL haf no lovelife or wadsoever, so i presumed she meant that i will/sld write on HERS??? her lovelife started when she meet this cute? guy in college, den she ask him if he noes her, he says no... she say "opps! euu looked like someone i noe in sec."... then she tok to him, he answered. they becum fwens, then decided to try out... so they went out tgt... then now... she hardly toks about him.. so poor Mr. Cute lies forgotten........
Have i got the story right??? and to tink i m ur supposily-SISTA~ i heard it from arh... how can euu do this to mii? and complain about mii somemore.. find out about mii through my fwen lah.. if euu haf the means... NIC~MWHAHAH :D fuming?? dun be mad lah, dun burnt the PSP down.. i wan to play cars de.. aft euu kp it safe, cont. seeing red.. i dun mind a bit~~ :p

=) hais... stop gifing mii problems lah.. i m so irritated lately.. do euu noe whu i toking about?? ******** .. figure it urself... :P

Today is a moment of anguish, pain and suspense.. fear struck mii hard, tinkin tt if i sld failed to maintain the standard, live up to the expectations of ppl, i will fall hard... and the self-esteem is playing tricks on mii, tellin mii softly about the pain i will haf to endure, if one mistake is made. a minor one, and it could cost the whole of my pride... the confidence i always haf seemed to lose its footing, slipped away miraculously at points of time when i nid it most... On the contrary, the devil of my mind crackled evilly at my pathetic self, telling mii that i will fail, and the moment when it said that, i tot of Mdm Sue's [ the A is in ur hand,its up to euu to grab it ].haf i had the A lying on my cletched palms?or is it floating away,gently,soundlessly? there is only suspense and guesses, many question-marks... ... Everyone is telling mii not to worry,never fear, for i haf always performed well. yet, the confidence is slackin away, the smiles is gone, and the idle mii seemed to be long gone. all i could do is to wait for the verdict, wait to noe if its heaven that awaits or the burning fire of hell... the butterflies in my stomach churned with everything i ate for recess, mixing together and causing mii more trauma. i looked at the skies, the azure-blue skies seemed to be filled with clouds, cloudy grey cloud... is it an omen of bad luck? or was heaven weeping at the loss of its member? i sighed as i walked up the stairs to the classroom... listening to the endless racious chattering can never be more tormenting than the fact that these people might be the ones tearing later... as Mr. Goh strutted in the class, smile-less. it seemed weird to see a solem looking Goh and his famous smile is completely wiped off from his face... it spelt doom for mii, and for many others i presumed... all i could depicts from this scene is that, it was not good news to be announced. truely enough, he told that mode was B3, all big disappointment for Mdm Teo gave us the assurance that the class would score 2/3 A... ... Then the results is announced. i gripped the side of the table tight, unable to tink. i felt like the world is going to stop, and that i was going to faint. as the numbers grew nearing to 13, i pled silently to God, hoping that He would bestow mii the A i wanted, even though not badly enough... As if answers to my prayers, i got wad i wanted, and all i could do is to stare into blank air emptily. i gave myself a light pinch on my arm, though light, it was enough to tell mii that it had not been a dream all along. God answered my prayers. the ordeal was worst than riding a roller-coaster, or going into a haunted house, something i avoid badly... ... This feeling is wad awaits unlawful citizens, the moment to judge verdict is announced, the moment of truth, the moment of knowing how is ur fate, and for mii, the moment of knowing how i fare. wad i haf been doing all these years, haf it been in vain, or will i reap wad i sow?? for mii, it was a near-death experience. i felt like i haf been to hell's gate, until the soft whisper pulled mii back... ... Thankfully, it was enough to be the pushing power, that is able to gif mii determination and let mii haf the grit to excel better.
*hope that my maths results next yr wouldnt let mii down. and pls, i wouldnt want this experience ever again~

Bouvelard Of Love
*****************

Never fearing since euu haf been gone,
Not wanting the secong time,
For the sake of being hearted in euur soul,
Being obssessed with being alone,
Walking through the bouvelard of love,
Walking through strange corridors,
Being stranger stranded among strangers,
Being in the bouvelard of love,
Never had the dream come true,
Feeling depressed is feeling mii,
Soulmate and broken promises,
Dreams are an illusion and faked fantasy,
Joys of being sunk being in this unreal reality,
Walking through the bouvelard of love,
Walking throuigh empty souls,
Being in the bouvelard of love,
And feeling nothing but numb,
Ironic filled this bouvelard,
This bouvelard of love.

finally i m bloggin. haha i m sure i miss my Richie...

i m real depressed. i cant feel the stress that is supposed to be upon mii... my marks are dropping real badly and i m real distracted... and i cant feel anything. i nid to feel a way of living, and i nid to find another route . i nid someone to help mii strengthen my determination. all i learned for now is that, nothing can be trusted and no one is good enough to be by anyone's side...

i haf been hurt badly and now, i haf given up enough... i noe there is someone there for mii, lending mii extreme support and i noe there is a fwen there, giving mii her upmost, but dere is nothing there to gif support to... depressedSAL is juz a body without soul. I haf given all myself to worthless things and lost all of them in the rain.. ...

i haf confessions to make...

To Jazz:
I noe i haf been horrible lately. but honestly, all the late night binge, crazii Orchard trips, Kbox dances, chocolates' shopping and pimples' viewing... it brings up my mood up alot. i haf been trying to act like nothing is wrong, and that the world is still spinning; but for mii, it had STOPPED.! thanks to ur crazii-ness and zest girl~ haha. i noe i can always count on euu to make my day.
Ps, its ur turn to confess to mii barh? Spit! Who's tt new guy?cute?... lols. and STOP PANGSEH MI~~~

To Nicholas:
Ok, i noe i really gotto apologize to euu for being such a jackass and such an irritant these days. don worry, i will get over him soon and then, picked myself up from where i haf fallen and den, wii will be the best BUDDIES and the best of FWENs right? haha. pray for mii dear bro... lols... but really thankful that God gave mii one such cool fwen that is forever energetic and supportive. But pls GOD, gif mii a fwen whu is good in SCIENCES~~! arh, euu n jazz sciences is like... same as mii. bad influences.. no wonder my science sux.. :'( weeps...
Ps, when are euu gg to bring mii to the movies?i missed popcorn's fights...

To whuever it may concern:
To whuever i offended recently, i m really really sorry. coz, i m really mad lately larh. the un-stressed is killing mii. weird tt ppl is mad at the stress, i m mad that i haf NO stress... weirdSAL. arh, and sorry for all the diao-ing and all the scolding and screaming and souring becoz, i cant help it larh. lols... next time it occur, let mii noe. dun scream or i will breakdown sia.. =)


As euu can see, these weeks, my life is undergoing big change... All the ups and downs, all the stressed-up by family, and worst still is the non-existable lovelife... arh~ all i hope is for the O' to come faster. than i can haf a dance binge. i love Street and Sweet Jazz... =) ....


* If only euu could see the tears,
I could only cry in the rain,
Wishing the rain could wash away the pain,
And that the tears can be hidden,
If only euu could see the pain,
I could only feel the hurt in my heart,
Wishing that it could tell mii the truth of love,
And that i get to face reality,
If only euu could hear the screams,
I could only utter weak wails,
Wishing that euu appear in my dreams to listen,
And that euu will truely understand how I feel,
For euu deep inside...


___ yesterday is history,
___ tomorrow is mystery,
___today is a gift,
___ that is why,
___it is a
___ PRESENT...