finally i m bloggin. haha i m sure i miss my Richie...

i m real depressed. i cant feel the stress that is supposed to be upon mii... my marks are dropping real badly and i m real distracted... and i cant feel anything. i nid to feel a way of living, and i nid to find another route . i nid someone to help mii strengthen my determination. all i learned for now is that, nothing can be trusted and no one is good enough to be by anyone's side...

i haf been hurt badly and now, i haf given up enough... i noe there is someone there for mii, lending mii extreme support and i noe there is a fwen there, giving mii her upmost, but dere is nothing there to gif support to... depressedSAL is juz a body without soul. I haf given all myself to worthless things and lost all of them in the rain.. ...

i haf confessions to make...

To Jazz:
I noe i haf been horrible lately. but honestly, all the late night binge, crazii Orchard trips, Kbox dances, chocolates' shopping and pimples' viewing... it brings up my mood up alot. i haf been trying to act like nothing is wrong, and that the world is still spinning; but for mii, it had STOPPED.! thanks to ur crazii-ness and zest girl~ haha. i noe i can always count on euu to make my day.
Ps, its ur turn to confess to mii barh? Spit! Who's tt new guy?cute?... lols. and STOP PANGSEH MI~~~

To Nicholas:
Ok, i noe i really gotto apologize to euu for being such a jackass and such an irritant these days. don worry, i will get over him soon and then, picked myself up from where i haf fallen and den, wii will be the best BUDDIES and the best of FWENs right? haha. pray for mii dear bro... lols... but really thankful that God gave mii one such cool fwen that is forever energetic and supportive. But pls GOD, gif mii a fwen whu is good in SCIENCES~~! arh, euu n jazz sciences is like... same as mii. bad influences.. no wonder my science sux.. :'( weeps...
Ps, when are euu gg to bring mii to the movies?i missed popcorn's fights...

To whuever it may concern:
To whuever i offended recently, i m really really sorry. coz, i m really mad lately larh. the un-stressed is killing mii. weird tt ppl is mad at the stress, i m mad that i haf NO stress... weirdSAL. arh, and sorry for all the diao-ing and all the scolding and screaming and souring becoz, i cant help it larh. lols... next time it occur, let mii noe. dun scream or i will breakdown sia.. =)


As euu can see, these weeks, my life is undergoing big change... All the ups and downs, all the stressed-up by family, and worst still is the non-existable lovelife... arh~ all i hope is for the O' to come faster. than i can haf a dance binge. i love Street and Sweet Jazz... =) ....


* If only euu could see the tears,
I could only cry in the rain,
Wishing the rain could wash away the pain,
And that the tears can be hidden,
If only euu could see the pain,
I could only feel the hurt in my heart,
Wishing that it could tell mii the truth of love,
And that i get to face reality,
If only euu could hear the screams,
I could only utter weak wails,
Wishing that euu appear in my dreams to listen,
And that euu will truely understand how I feel,
For euu deep inside...


___ yesterday is history,
___ tomorrow is mystery,
___today is a gift,
___ that is why,
___it is a
___ PRESENT...