fine.. today is horrible...
first, there is this already planned thingy.. fine i am a very attitude person. lousy one. and i don like troubles and damn hateful of sensitivity.. and then, today was supposed to be..
HAPPIE shopping day or sth n it changed dramatically to DEPRESSED home-watching buffy... .. but puh-lease.. how can someone go shopping without WALKING? i mean, euu walk wif ur leg then euu dun wanna walk to tired ur leg, go buy OSIM or sth lah... and its juz walking home... is tt diff? i mean i wanna go home coz 1. Go CHANGE. 2. i noe euu totally hated walking, and very 'xin teng' ur leg. tt's y wii go home.. rest a lil, soak ur precious leg in soap or sth.. SPA it.. whu noes, then set off.. tt way i hear less grumbling about painful leg.. and i can shop for my stuffs... ... den this is the stupid 'fine, don go' attitude of mii.. FINE~ sally doesnt wan to go... can euu at least TRY??? to make her go? ok, i m tactless... fine~ ignore mii... ... arghh.. n it seemed so hard to converse anymore... ... so the whole thing is spoilt.. my whole mood reduces to ZERO,NIL,DITTO DOTS,NONE~!!! sigh.. feel like calling her to cancel kbox tmr.. i either feel SLIGHTLY better tmr, or VERY worst... and it doesnt help to increase my already horrible mood.. i mean,MAN! my mood isnt even horrible, its... .. juz DOWN... i m not feeling upset or angry or wad... FINE, whu m i KIDDING? yup, i AM upset,sad, depressed and a slight angry.. fed-up.. must be the Virgo's perfectionist in mii.. i juz hate cropping up my plans... .. anyway, i haf absolutely no feelings for the word SHOPPING.. and to think a day ago i was happily listing my shopping lists, planning to make my getaway @ bugis today.. but now, nth stir mii up anymore.. its DOWN DOWN DOWN~

and then. i m horrified at the progress of Jazz and her new-boyfriend.. dun ask mii wad they did.. .. it was mad.. hmm.. a lil awesome.. i wish i had her bravery. euu noe, to do sth brave... sth worthful... and sth ridiculous.. juz let go totally.. .. kinda miss the ex-paraDANCE crazy sally and the hipHOP dancer sally... .. maybe wii cld party @ Jazz hse n let the hair loose sometimes... =)

anyway, today's teacher's day celebration is awesome... .. Xcept some singing.. but gosh, Tengcheong and Kahkin's band totally rock.. i mean, i lokpui n jiemin were HIGH there... shouting and cheering.. .. hahahs. tt was cool den i saw tengcheong aft tt wif tt eyeliner mascara thingy.. godness.. cool ii guess... and. erm, from AFAR kinda shuai... =) lol. ... and black is awesome.. and kahkin's band's song v nice. and i kinda like his voice... .. when protraying tt song lah..=)

ok, a lil soul-pouring here..
Sometimes, i wish to be more significant.. i dun wanna hide. i mean i ALWAYS does tt... go somewhere, and then its hide and seek time.. i think i m real FAKE and ARTIFICIAL... can i be more... TRUTHFUL?? and i nid to face ppl wif my own self.. i WANT to.. but i cant... tt is the part tt is totally pathetic and quinky... i m juz a fake girl.. i had enough of mii.. patheticSAL.. depressedSAL. un-lovedSAL... and i really HATE mii.. self-hatred.. let the self-despair works man! sometimes i wish my mom nvr gif birth to mii, or born mii to be more pleasant or sth? juz be more useful.. i feel so useless.. and so insignificant.. i can be wif ppl and feel lonely, i can be stranded among strangers but nvr mingle around and CURSE IT, nvr be noticed... .. i loved Bouvelard Of Love.. a 'song' i written ... .. the lyrics is so TRUELY mii.. the despairity, sucking up on SELF-pity, wallowing myself in pathetic-ness, hating myself to the core, despising every part of mii from eyeballs to entrails...