i so addicted to 'bu si zhi mi' ... haha.. today pop i tink celebrating X;mas den got free buffet.. a lot ppl went back i tink, but i din coz i went k wif Jiemin n Sinren.. .. haha.. v funny leh den wii all sing till v emotional... and i din go outoftune in Lydia~~~ yep!! haha.. but den Du Chang Qing Ge tt time i sing boy de den i 'ging' until pekcek halfway change to female.. haha.. no choice, i sing high de mah... =p hee... .. den go shop shop den my mama call mii ask mii go pop help her take her books, she reserve de... three identical de sia.. den saw Kevin n Wenjing n Chewei and the rest lah... haha, den Anna tell mii not to buy the Kueh book but buy the Crab one coz crab nicer.. .. cute lah.. haha... .. den chat wif Pearl and Chewei lah. saw June but din say hi she looked so busy.. ... hais...

为什么这个时候让我记起你？如果，你没回来，我不会那么彷徨无助！
我知道你一直都在努力跟我联系，但是，毕竟我们隔着一大片海洋。平时，我也很少记起你，但是，你却突然的送我礼物，说了那些让我再次心动的话，说你要回来，说你想我。是人，都会陶醉。我很害怕，又再一次陷入迷雾里。

today damn sucks loh.. tt girl!
say liao go watch death note den say don wan liao.. forget it, she kp niao mii till i no choice fa wei. den still kp niao mii.. i good to bully fun to pangseh hor??stupid lah..

anyway, i went back popular.. haha. damn funny i went to collect my comic but LaiChoo not arnd, den BErnard ring three bells den i too used liao go counter there ask him wad! haha.. ... den dylan run lah. but den he also funny loh.. not used of seeing pop ppl w/o their hat.. ahha.. then saw huiying den she tell mii sth DAMN FUNNY!! hahahhahaa.. y i today off... misses this morn 'meeting' too pity le... .. so funny loh.. den saw pearlyn den she also tell mii the same funny thing.. haha.. i n her look too much alike liao izzit?? but pearlyyn n huiying sld see the C face when she saw mii.. like SHOCK!! hahahahahhahahahahaha cant stand it!! so funny. den Clare so busy wanna tok to her also cannot.. ... YuChoo n MiaoXiang Auntie arnd den i tok to them loh.. .. den go disturb Auntie yuxiang n bernard n auntie shirley.. .. haha.. Auntie Shirley v cute lah.

hais, these days ah.. tornado sia.. i haf to work for 5 straight days.. forget this,
23th
i got fed-ex mail.. the company damn professional loh. is my honey mail de.. ... haha jkjk.. is a long lost fwen(luv)? KaiEn's Xmas present to mii frm CANADA!! god! but he is an impt guy/fwen in my life lah... ... first crush smore.. ahha, den he sms mii and ask if i got mail liao coz he ask the company to send to mii on 23th. den he say he will call mii at night. so i tell him to call @ 10.20. den i 10.15 wanna leave liao, dyln ask mii tidy diary.. make mii miss the call...!!! arg!!! den he leave for sch liao so cant call him back... my ma nag at mii loh, say wad why bois callin frm oversea? tot i go IRC make international fwen or wad den anyhow gif no. plz, i m not tt cheap...
24th
siao, X;mas eve only 5 ppl workin sia, den a lot presents to wrap... ... but fun lah.. ... anyway, popular nth nice to say .. =) but at night 2300 Kaien call mii !! haha, juz bath finish den he call.. lucky my mama slp liao.. den wii chat till midnight i also donnoe den he suddenly sing on the phone "merry christmas to you " den i look clock saw is midnight which is 25th liao.. damn touched and i tink he damn sweet lah.. ... he sounded so .. adulty.. but i noe he is always the Kaien i noe .. ... coz he send mii de present, inside got two TWO photo album of him... ... all him sia.. ..... frm 15 yrs old to 17 yrs old.. .. god! say he scared i miss him.. .. PUKE! haha... ... too bad i nv take pictures of miiself de cant send him... . haha.. but he is damn nice lah.. ... but he say he misses singapore and his fwens here.. so i ask him, mii included?? he say not counted as fwen.. ... but he also cant explain y but he noe he got miss mii this two yrs.. but he coming back on 22th January.. .... permanantly!! damn happie.. den wii chat a lot about his life and my life and all the changes lah.. ... really shocked he remember mii coz even thou my bday/christmas/newyr all the holidays he def will send e-card but first time he sending GIFT, den he say coz he comin back so wan to re-build my impression of him.. ... haha.. den i told Nich about him b4 den i tell him he comin back on 22th den Nich diao mii say " good loh "... ... so fed-up for waD??!
25th
christmas day pop so empty.. ... i spend three hours pack toys dept till v v v tidy. den i don wan pack/ go in liao.. coz scared messy i will heartache. .... den i run "three bells" till i went mad! haha... ... but i damn tired i tink coz i spend the whole night on phone wif Kaien.. .. hais, tink my ma gg mad when phone bill come... .. 1hr 30 min of oversea call frm CANADA leh.. .... =(

既然已经变质了，那么我也没那个心情去理会；反正，我早就看清友谊并不是永远，而我的爱情永远都只停留在友情间。

hais... nowadays so shitty loh... so sians...
den i cant even go out during norm time coz of work... .
anyway, been watching Hana Kimi.. Outrageous storyline... gorgeous guys... =)
then the stupid death note ep 12 haven subbed yet i watch den i tink i m mad lah.. haha... coz i don understand jap.. and walao wad the fuck, the Misa in the anime so damn damn damn ugly.. like cao ah-lian ... the real movie de Misa chio-er... cant wait for death note2... hais, popular got their calendar but its damn small and the pictures got line lines de.. .. =(
den someone re-upload Prince Frog, so i create new playlist.. hahahahah.. but Angel Lover's s getting boring n my Scissors Paper Stone end liao... ... sigh.. kp re-watchin Fahrenheit's stuffs and WQYL... ... Even youtube is getting boring... ..

anyway, Sunday i went to lunch n dinner wif Clare n Kelvin den kinda funny lah the topic wii chat about. Clare is mad loh, buy a CD earring.. ... mwhaha, wad does it means?? hahahahhaha.... anyway, ysday i help the toys promoter takecare toys kinda beat by a kid walao eh!! i see euu small boy don gen ni ji jiao.. if euu adult i slap euu liao le lah... Fuck it! take my rabbit out, den i take back liao hit mii like mad on the BACK!@@@ painleh. Wad da hell loh... .. Arg.. den point at mii say i notty girl... damn him! =@


Nicholas ysday sms mii ask mii get off on 25th but i cant lah... no one wanna switch wif mii.. ... wanna cele X'mas wif Jazz they all.... but its stupid loh.. ... i mean, cakes are so out0dated liao.. .. but wii planning go sing kbox till.. .... 2am(k box closes) ...... hais. then i tell him if can 26th then he sort of pissed mii off by calling mii and saying in a bad tone "na me qing zhu shen me?? ni you mei you gao cuo?" ... den i shout back lah.. ... call mii at 11PM and scold mii.. stupid ho? den i tink i sort of hurt his feelings loh, but heck carre liao.. nowadays i damn moody... .... no choice.. easily pissed off at small lil thing... den jazz sms mii say 26th ok but now my turn to consider... ... but coz of the shouting to phone thingy, my mama scold mii loh, say y i rude to fwen.....i also lazy to xplain xplain xplain...every lil thing also nid explain.. den i juz ignore her go slp loh.. but i slp-less sia.. .. den i wake up at 11.30 today.. diao rite?? =)

第三章的惆怅：
從來沒有那么渴望你欺騙我；
是一陣風吹熄了承諾；
你走後留下的玻璃碎，
割傷了早已停止跳動的心；
雨滴包囊著淚水；
哀泣聲引風而來；
鋼琴的音符；
濃烈著悲哀;
原来自由是那么的可欲不可求。

went bowlin wif Jun and her fwen

hais.. today so damn busy... . .. v scared see Dylan now, sure no gdd thing de.. ask mii arrange things .. ... bleh! went to lunch n dine wif Claire.. she is mad and fun lah.. ..! lol.. den got one customer v wad loh, i spent 1/2 hr wif her on Stapler.. she wan mii take out one by one for her.. .. den those i paste the whole morn de leh.. ARG! den someone stock up the staplers without price tags so i haf to tags... den got one more customer go ask mii about PVC glue but don believe when i say the white will become transparent when dry.. .. sigh... today so busy...

承受，成熟；
我能够承受，表示我已经成熟。

hais, so long never blog?now blog the whole wk's thingy bah?? lol,,,
why i nv blog?
coz i got work @ popular mah... !

haha, first day go there learn stationery's dept staffs...

hais Nicholas, got euu wif mii so good! hais.. i today really jing shen fen lie.. honestly i suspect i got split personality.. euu wanna sponser mii go see psychologist? i really think too much le lah.. den walau, get depressed all of sudden den make till everyone next to mii feel COLD~~ coz haha, i rarely tone down norm i m LOUD and CRAZY, so once i quiet ppl will tink strange strange but actually i also dunno wad happen to mii lor.. sudden tink of sth v sad, like my non0existin lovelife or tot kena pangseh (tink too much) den become so depressed.... ... either i tinkk too much or not i got split personality.. .. Very split somemore.. ... Hais...

一颗心到底能承受多少打击？你想知道吗？怎么老是在考验我？有时很想知道，到底老天惩罚人的方式是什么？有时崩溃，很想哭，却又得逼着自己把眼泪藏起，因为－就算哭，也没人会理。

后来才了解，在不断的折磨和磨练中，我慢慢成长。一只毛毛虫，变成美丽的蝴蝶前不是也要经过一段磨练？小树在狂风暴雨中，学着坚强。婴儿开始走路时，也要懂得如何跌倒后爬起。原来，我已经长大了！
以前逃避，害怕，恐惧；现在我了解到　［　成熟不是心变老，而是眼泪在打转还能微笑。　］
而我，以前每次不开心，都会找你哭诉，都会哭。现在，我懂得如何掩饰难过，不再那么依赖你。

以前不懂的东西太多了。
不懂原来恋爱那么痛；不懂原来眼泪是女孩子的珍珠；不懂什么叫心软；不懂如何分辨同情和爱情；不懂跌倒的伤；不懂原来你在身边；不懂如何照顾身旁的人；不懂爱情。　非得撞个满头包才懂痛。

现在，了解到，想珍惜，你还在吗？
时间好残酷，不让我回头，也不让我停留。
地吸引力好讨厌，不让我下跌，也不会留住我。
你更可怕，不让我忘记你，却又不让我得到。

你，还会回来吧？想把你变成风筝，因为我知道，我不会轻易放手，除非，你真的很想往天空飞翔。如果这样，我会陪着你。